hye , i'm back :) 

hyeeeeee , seriously , stresny ak skrng nie ,, k mri ak kc crita psal hdup ak yg indah ini ,,

well after orange left me ,, i'm really hurt for .. mmm how many months rr ?? 3 months i guess , then , suddenly someone who's better showed up in my life :) , he is my crush since i was 15 :) , 

yaaaa i text him first ,, hahaha it was really funny for me to do that , just so u know i'm doing that because i'm trying to get over my past that is orange ,

hahahahaah then in october :P ,, hehehehe miahhhahahahahha something wonderful happened ,, we are not officially a couple but , he's mine , and i'm his :P ,, we had being so sweet during the first month , i still remember , how he gave me chocolates after they came back from camping miahahhaahah , kn they went camping at melaka , then i asked him for a chocolate ,, the funny thing is , ahahhahaha , he left the receipt in the bag , :P that's really cute ,, until now he didn't know about it ,, ahahhah

there are so many memories about us ,, hahaha , 

1. dating in class - we sit together during prep

2.after prep malam , balik2 sama from class

3.saya mrajuk , then dy call mw pjuk :P

4.saya merajuk , he bought me an ice-cream

5.he gave me his t-shirts , playsafe n bju pngakap ,, bju ksayangn dy ,, mula2 tue dy tyamw bg ,, trus sy ckp , yalakn , bie lg syng bju tue dri ang .. hahaah trus dy bg nie ,, sayanggggg dy sangat2 :0

n many moreeeeeee

well i love him the way i supposed to , then at the end of october , something went wrong with him ,, well yeah that time was our final examination , so need to work hard to get good result ,, so we don't text 24/7 ,, i'm okay with it , but he must text me for goodnight wishes , at least that ,, a girl need that , i'm so sure that this is important for every girlfriend of every boyfriend , 

and yeah he text me for goodnight wishes , the sad things are , he started to ignore my message , munyit betull kannn , he started to ignore me in class and i feel like unwanted , idiot boy .. 

and he replied my message like i'm someone that wasn't important his life , i hate him ,, sakit hati tw ,, well i'm not crying that time but my heart is crying all the time ,, 

then , everything ends on 9 november :"( ,, maigoshh that moment i received his message ,, blum smpt hbs bca ,, bru sparuh mcg dy ,, hahahaha trus mnags babe ,, mcm someone is dying ,,

i cried ,, maybe for an hour ahahha ,, then the next day ,, the last day at school ,, mata sya bengkak ,, me become panda ahhahah ,,

but , there's no point of me to beg for him to come back right , he don't want me , so i move on sjaaa lr ,, yeahh i will never forget him , i'll just remove him from the lists in my heart hahaha , kn he's no 1 in my lists ,, :p .

hahahah , i can have a million of crush but i can only have 1 boyfriend , that's my principle as a girl ,, k thats all bubbyeee :P

 

hyeeeee ,,, im back :)))) u know what saya mkin comell hahahaha ,,, xbherrr..mmm we start with orange ,, grrrr so sad ,, he ,,,, me ,, biarlr ,, :( .. move on sjaaa hekhekehek ..but i miss him ... a lot .. so much ,, too much maybe heehhhe ,, i'll love him until i got boring ,,but when will i got boring ?? haaah .. soon maybe ..kn2 :) .. now holiday ,, 1 week after back to college ,, exam US2 for sem2 ,, omg ,, i've not studied yet ,, im not ready bebeh ,,yaaa in class we still didn't talk to each other ,, i mean orange ,, it's been 7 m0nths .. hohoho world record ahhhahah..

what else rrrr ,, mmm i'm gaining weight ,, oo nooo :((( ,, nvm ,, blik mktb i kurus blik ahhaha ...

orange n me end everything on june ,, bad starter for july ..i cried a lot gila2 that night ,, 30 june .. cry + a little laughter .. because i feel that i was so stupid to lick my spit back ,, grrr ... heehhhe maybe it is my fault ,, because everytime orange say ILY  i never replied to him ,, but it doesnt mean i dont love himm kn ,, nvm ,, let bygone be bygone <---- btul kh nie ??? hntammm ja lr ,,,

n to face the heartbroken moment ,, i've wrote lots of things in my phone's draft .. but i already delete all of it ,, i've read it many times ,, n it hurts ,, i cried more than i expected u kno ,, yaaa we end on 30 june kn ,, then the next day ,, i went to school dgn mta yg bngkak2 ,, grrr mcm bodoh kn ,,, huh he just dont deserve those tears ,,then on my birthday he text me lr knun ,, wishing me happy birthday ,, blablablabla ,, that night i also cried ,, idiot .. idiot .. idiot ..

but he's not that bad , it's only me who is childish i thought , nvm .. later this feeling will disappear from time to time ,, just so he know that i miss him so much :')

june's weather

dear you,,,huhh,,things get more harder for me now,,i forgive her,,but then i feel that deep in me,,is still really hurt,,y????i got so confuse with myself,,im not sure bout my feeling,,1 thing for sure,,i still want to cry when the flashback just come back like that,,my pass keep following me,,,this is so omo..i try to forget but i cant,,:"( ...yyyyyyyyyyyy????

i know this sounds so stupid,,but that guy still have place in my heart,,he still own it even he dont want,,,kyaaaa i feel so stupid,,,super duper idiot,,,i shouldnt give him chance from the start,,,:'(..huuuuuhhh please,,,i really want to erase him,,immediately,,im suffering :'(,,a torture for loving the wrong person,,,God please help,,,,

i dont want to feel the pain anymore,,,

i hate this feeling,,,i hate,,i hate,,i hate,,i hate,,:'(,,,,,,,sob..sob..sob..

march baby :P

hey3.. :)..its been a very long time i didnt wrote something ( i think so :P ) since the last entry...

mmmm..school break for now..i'll be back at college on 19 march... 1 day late :))))

mmm..so many things happen owhh..u know what i keep making him feel annoyed everytime we chat on fb wakkaakakkakaakkkaka...i dont want too..but..it comes naturally hihii..i didnt forgive him yet,,pity him.. 

huhuhuhu still sad for what he did to me :"(..but  karma already   attacked him..babai from that girl to him..just like what he did to me...thanks to karma hahahahha.. 

my homeroom is complete now..15 students..but i dont like them..3 of them..eee...dont like...

but the new ashraf seems ok becoz he has a good look wakakkkakak :P..

i'm f4 this year..taking biology babeh...but if i'm not one of  the top 75..huhuhu i need to drop bio n choose other subject..either PA or REKA CIPTA..and i will make sure things like that will not happen..

what else to say....mmmm...ya i'm the president of my homeroom..n i'm afraid that i'll be a president..aiya...huhu..

thats all for now..tata..

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